Despite the up’s and down’s that I’ve already endured this year, it really does seem as though I was just celebrating New Years Eve! Now it’s already July 4th and the year is more than half over.
For me, the first half of the year has a lot of resemblance to the picture below.
Most days were clouded and deary. Sometimes I was too wrapped up in my own stuff to let the sunshine through, other times it was stormy because of reasons outside of my control.
The goals I made for myself at the start of the new year were abandoned just as quickly as they were formed. Through the storms of the first half of the year I became someone I did not recognize. At the same time, those storms taught me some lessons that I needed to learn too.
I am strong when I stand on my own two feet. I can control my own health and my own destiny. I am independent. I am not broken or weak. I am worth something. I am me!
Once I pieced those lessons together the clouds and rain started to dissipate all on their own.
With six months left in the year I have a lot of ground I want to make up, and a lot of things I want to change. I always said this year would be about becoming a better version of myself; one day at a time. While I never shared my exact goals with you, its time to reevaluate and do some personal work shopping.
I want to have goals with more focus and a plan, too, for the 2nd half of 2013.
One thing I know for sure is that my health must become a priority. Old habits die-hard, but since my PCOS diagnosis I really don’t have an option anymore. I did well for a few months, even lost close to 20 pounds, but then I fell off the wagon. That’s not a choice if I want to control this and live a happy, healthy life. This means clean, low carb, eating to help with the PCOS and some other health issues/concerns.
I want to register and run a half marathon. Alex and I already have one in mind, and no it’s not a Disney race. More on this race to come soon. I know this means more than just running. I need to cross train too. In fact, I’d still love to give CrossFit a chance as soon as my bank account allows for it.
Finally, I would like to make strides in my career and education. I am not yet sure exactly where or how, but I know I want to be ready to dive in come January 2014.
While I drafted this post yesterday I kept thinking that these goals seem lofty. Maybe they are, but I know I can break them down into smaller daily or weekly goals that will help me when its time to look at the bigger picture. I also know that these goals are necessary to becoming a better me.