It’s been over a month since I last blogged and I am totally ok with that.
At one point I remember opening up my blog and thinking “How ridiculous is this?”. I wasn’t thinking about the act of blogging, but how I was trying to utilize blogging.
My thought was:
Blogging was going to
make me help me lose weight.
Blogging was also going to train me for a 10 mile race.
I had a bad case of “if I write it, it will happen” flu.
I remember looking at my Miles to Disney tab and I became very disappointed in myself. Everything that page represented and everything I failed to do with it brought an awkward amount of clarity. It was the first time that I really understood that blogging is just a way for me to share my story with the world and maybe gain a little accountability along the way. By partaking in the act of blogging I would NOT miraculously lose weight, be a well trained runner, or be unraveled in my healthiness journey.
In one of my last posts I wrote …
”I don’t want to write because I can. I want to write because I am doing something.
I want to write because I am active, healthy, learning, and living.”
I still believe in that statement, and I have since learned that I am my own accountability. I hate to say this by I was living in a blog fantasy land. And in that land my blog had magical powers. Unfortunately, in reality those magical powers do not exist.
You heard it here first, folks! I am still over weight, I still make the wrong food choices, and I am still a slow runner! And guess what? That all falls on me, not my poor little blog!
I have some updates that I will be posting soon enough, but for now I wanted you to know that I am alive, kicking, struggling with my healthiness, but I am learning along the way.