Did you noticed I haven’t posted a workout recap in two weeks? The last one I posted was for Week Nine on April 24th. Yikes! Let’s face it, there is an ugly truth behind my lack of posts.
I have felt zero motivation to log the necessary miles called for by my training plan. Ten miles are a long ways to run by September and I have logged just two miles in the last two weeks.
My eating has been out of control. Whatever I want, when I want, and as much as I want. A bagel with cream cheese every morning? Or a burger from Checkers after a day of mindless snacking?
I’m famous for saying “tomorrow”. Tomorrow I can workout. Tomorrow I can eat better.
It’s a horrible, vicious cycle.
The lack of workouts –> out of control eating –> weight gain (oh yeah, I’ll get to that) –> self-doubt about being able to lose weight or run 10 miles –> … and the cycle repeats itself.
My last weigh in on Week Nine was 206.4. Today, two weeks later, 215 even.
That is how the ball has bounced for me lately.
I’ve struggled a lot. It’s been emotional and I often feel inadequate for the goals I have set for myself. Since starting this blog and healthiness journey (almost 3 years ago) I have gained nearly 25 pounds. There have been plenty of times that I just want to throw in the towel, especially over the last two weeks.
Last Friday afternoon I took myself to the gym because I am not ready to be defeated yet. Although I was dreading the workout I realized I was craving a workout in the worse way too. Our minds are tricky like that.
I took it slow and steady, like really slow, and jogged two miles at a 17 minute pace.
I even did a short strength session too.
Leg Press: 12 reps @ 60 pounds
12 @ 100 pounds
Arm Extensions: 8 @ 30 pounds
8 @ 20 pounds
Arm Curls: 12 @ 30 pounds ( 2 times)
Overhead Press: 10 @ 30 pounds
10 @ 20 pounds
It felt glorious to sweat. To feel the rush of endorphins. To move my body.
I’ve got a long ways to go. Now I just have to remember how to get there.