My eating has been just that, off the tracks!
I know that I made all the choices by myself, so there should be no reason for a poor me party.
I’ve made some HORRIBLE eating choices. HORRIBLE!! Looking back on my journals and trackers, my intuitive eating not in check. Actually, it’s no where to be found.
I can manage ok when I am alone, but everything I know about being healthy flushes right down the toilet when I am with other people. Using the excuse that the other people are not making healthy choices isn’t valid because they aren’t making MY choices.
For example: Last night we went out to dinner. I saw the light salads and healthy choice section of the menu, but my eyes veered right over to the burgers. I swear it must have been 2000 calories of meat, cheese, bacon, BBQ sauce and potato wedges.
In no way do I feel pressured to make an unhealthy choice. Unfortunately, I have the “just this one time” mentality right now.
This week I have realized that “just this one time” has turned into all the time.
It’s true what the say, ya know. It’s easier when you surround yourself with like minded people. Birds of a feather flock together? This bird feels pretty much alone, with the exception on Alex and my #f2fpack friends. I can’t be with my healthy living friends right now, and I don’t have that base here at home.
People here just don’t seem to care about their healthiness, and that makes it really hard on me.
When I am surrounded by unhealthy people, I make the unhealthy choice almost 100% of the time.
I want to lead by example. I want to make the healthy choice more than just 50 or 60% of the time. I want to be able to make the healthy choice, no matter what situation I am in. I want to feel confident in my ability to do so, in public, with friends, and 100% of the time.
I have the name of a therapist/nutritionist who helped a friend last year. I will be setting an appointment up with her. I am not ashamed in that. I know I need help getting in the right mindset and regaining my focus again. Who knows, maybe she can help me get to the real reasons behind my eating.
I’ve also purchased some great books on intuitive eating for my Nook Color. (Anyone else have a nook and want to be friends so we can share?)
What’s your struggle or weakness with intuitive eating?
How did/do you deal with it?**After posting I’m not sure if this makes much sense. I just wrote as the thoughts came to me.
It’s raw and pure.