After turning off my bedroom light and sinking into my cloud like bed I was ready to drift off to dreamland. Comfort and peace always seem to consume me when I am tucked into my bed. But not this morning. By 2:24am I laid awake after only a few hours of mediocre sleep. The swooshing of my fan blades above was silenced by the steady ticks of my bright red wall clock that hangs on the wall above me.
Something was bothering me. Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock.
Ah! Get out of my mind. Without a second thought I knew what the issue was.
I slide out of my bed, switched on my light, and dashed to the other room where I flung on those lights. There it was, staring me down, just as revolting as the noise that had been echoing from my bright red wall clock. My scale!
Here it is, 2:30 in the morning and I am standing barefoot, in my pajamas, in front of my scale. Why am I giving it this power over me? And why at 2:30am? Goodness! 2:30 in the morning is no time for me to be battling with my scale demons, so I faced my judgement.
As I slugged my way back into bed where I tried to decipher what was really happening here. Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock. I began to think of all the time I have let go to waste. I’ve been on my “healthiness journey” for a year and the clock is reminding me of that. I haven’t been losing
much at all, but I haven’t gain either. Maintenance is a sleepless place!
Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock. My mind drifted to every possible corner searching for correlations between the clock and the scale. It was finally sinking in that in the last year I have not done what I intended to do. After a deep exhale of mixed feelings I rolled over and closed my eyes in hopes of a good nights rest. It wouldn’t be sweet dreams.
Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock. Time just keeps on pushing, doesn’t it? Now the real challenge begins. I need to learn how to make the clock work for me so I can get where I want to be.
Do you have a demon clock hanging above your head? What’s it telling you?
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