The past few days have been filled with shopping trips, a hair appointment, and coffee dates. I have felt like a million bucks! Pretty Woman, if you will.
Today’s blog won’t be filled with pictures or fun shopping stories.
Today’s blog will be heart wrenching, tearful, and hard for me to articulate.
This morning I learned the real truth.
This morning I had a regular appointment with my Doctor. Her and I go way back, at least 15 years. Sitting in the waiting room I knew this was not going to be a fun visit; I just had that sick feeling in the pit of my stomach. I also knew it was my fault and whatever happened back in that exam room was going to be because of my own doing.
I started this blog back in August of 2010. Six months ago I set out with the best of intentions to lose weigh and change my life for the better. For the last six months I have been a yo-yo-er. Not much has changed, not much has gotten better. Laziness speaks for itself.
Back in that exam room laziness was a reason the scale read 189.8. Laziness was a reason that my BMI is 34.8 and I am morbidly overweight. It was a reason why I got a hard lecture and a lot of tough love.
I am guaranteeing myself a short and unhappy life. Unhealthy is no longer an option.
The numbers I saw today will no long define me, they will motivate me.
Do you know how much fat comes with 189.8 pounds and a 34.8 BMI?
I didn’t really understand until she rolled it in on a cart.
I can not remember the last time I cried like this, and I definitely can not remember the last time I cried like that in front of another person.
She knows about my blog and my attempts at a food journal. She really wanted me to get the Diet Minder Food & Fitness Journal. Good for me that I picked one up yesterday because the one I created was much to big for me to carry everywhere. I was told to keep that with me at all times. I am no longer allowed to be lazy.
We talked about food and exercise. We talked about short term and long term goals.
Laziness is no longer an option.
Food goal: 3 servings of fruit and 3 servings of veggies. Everyday.
She also gave my calorie goals. Start at 1600 and work my way down to no more than 1300 per day.
Exercise goal: 40 minutes of cardio. 4 times per week.
Long term weight goal: 135 pounds and a BMI of 25 or less.
Long term fitness goal: Run the Disney Princess Half Marathon next year.
I am reaching out for help. I need accountability. I am the only one who can make the change, but I can’t do this alone. And I know I am not the first or only person to struggle.
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Have you had a moment where you realized enough was enough? Did you hit the end of your rope? What was that moment and how did it change you?