“Don’t dig your grave with your own knife and fork.” – NineInchGirl, MFP
That quote was so great for me today that I HAD to borrow it!
I am going to have to assume everyone reading this has watched Friends at some point in their lifetime. This is a safe assumption, right?
Last night I was flipping the channels and came across some Friends reruns that would entertain me until Monday Night Football.
The particular episode that was on was: “The One That Could Have Been: Friends ponder what might have come to pass if each had take a different path in life.”
Monica flashes back to still being fat. The whole episode she was eating junk food and sweets. Then, at the end she is still a big girl and dancing around the living room while stuffing her face.
When the show was originally on it didn’t phase me that old Monica was fat. I watched the show for the humor, I loved it! But now, I see myself in her! Because I saw myself in Fat Monica, I
was am disgusted by that person.
OMG! Is that what I look like? Yes! That is what I have been doing lately. I have turned into Fat Monica. Eating my feelings, my emotions, my boredom! Eating because I can. Eating because I love chocolate. Eating to drown out the signals that I might be full.
Speaking of signals, yesterday I wrote about my brain signals, or lack there of. Now I am seeing myself in fat TV characters. This is not Kosher. It has to stop now! I need to get this under control. The holidays are upon us and if I allow my eating problems to get worse my weight will end up higher than when I started!
I know the scale is going in the wrong direction. I am pretty positive that when I weigh-in on tomorrow I will see a gain for the second week in a row.
As someone pointed out to me yesterday, she would rather be control freak Monica than fat Monica. Oh how true! I need to control of everything I buy at the grocery store, that gets prepared for my meals, and that I put in my mouth. That is the only answer. Control!
Control freak Monica lost all her weight. Control freak Sabrina can too!
I do not want to be the fat girl dancing around her living room with a Little Debbie in each hand. (I don’t actually eat Little Debbie’s, but pretty damn close)
This is me getting myself together. I am going to count every calorie and photograph every meal. I will not let myself be Fat Monica anymore. I will not continue on this backward slide.
Whew! It’s been a rough few weeks in my healthiness journey! Positive thinking…
So I am going to work on my goals/bucket list. Look for a new tab shortly! I also need to formulate a REALISTIC
workout plan and update that tab. One I can stick to & build upon.
Drop me a line if you got a good one working for you, that I may be able to tweak!