I am coming to you on a weekend. This does not happen very often because I am normally to busy claiming stakes for my place on the couch so I can enjoy a full day of sports watching!
Today I am a bit troubled. I am just a girl who is trying to lose weight but is far from a workout junkie. I am also don’t eat the way I should at every.single.meal! So this has been a long and difficult road just to lose 11 pounds since August.
I have done no exercise which didn’t get me very far. I have tried walking. I even tried doing the 30 Day Shred. Both are great options, for someone willing to do it 5-7 days a week. I thought I would be able to commit to 5 days a week, and I failed. I got bored and I lost interest.
I have always been envious of runners. I still am. There is something about how fit runners always seem to be, and their muscle tone that always has intrigued me. The Couch to 5K program looked like a decent option for me to get started. The problem was I would start and stop and never get past Week 1. I never had the motivation or the drive to see it through.
Some time in the last few weeks I found that drive. It probably came from a combination of knowing I needed to make a change and reading so many wonderful running stories from other bloggers. I was disgusted with myself, but inspired by others. And what did I have to lose by trying, other than some weight?
The first week of November I laid out my plan and I was going to become a runner, or at least try my hardest. I ran four days last week, and four days this week. I ALMOST completed Week 3 of training. It hasn’t been easy, I never expected it to be. After all I am a 187 pound, out of shape, girl trying to run for 3 minutes straight.
Honestly, the last 2 weeks have been the best 2 weeks of my weight loss journey thus far. No real weight change, but the inches started to shrink. (You can see those numbers HERE.) I felt motivated to keep going and push myself beyond what I thought was possible. I have felt confident I could do this after all. I have felt productive, not just in a working out kind of way, but also at home and with school. And, I have been able to eat a little something extra and not feel TOO guilty about it.
If you read YESTERDAY’S blog, you know that I was in some serious pain. I did the whole Rest.Ice.Compress.Elevate thing for most of the afternoon. To no avail my calf muscles were still pretty sore later at night, and today! Last night, while I was watching TV, I made sure to have my legs elevated again. Everything from my knees down were achy.
I started thinking about running and I got a little worried, even slightly upset. What if I can’t run anymore? What if these pains will haunt me forever? I have looked into possible causes – shoes to stretching. Nothing is matching up right away. I am almost scared to run again for fear of further pain and injury. But I want to maintain those feelings of motivation and confidence. I am so frustrated right now.
I am also baffled that running has quickly become an exercise that I look forward to doing. How did that happen? FINALLY I have a form of exercise that I seem committed to. Something that will help me lose weight, get fit, and help me reach my ultimate goals. Will I be able to overcome the pains and keep on training? I actually want to continue running, all 187 pounds of me!
I won’t give up just yet. Monday I will try again.